Ok I have been writing for 20 minutes because I have stuggled so this last week and GOd had sent my sister to help me to be able to get through the first week of school. I don't know where that letter went but I think it was pretty discouraging. It just lef the page. Oh well. I guess I needed to vent to myself.
Last week when I thought oh no this is it I can't do it any more, house yard, kids , school, money, groceries. The whole thing. I was getting a heavey chest. DOnna came and was so good to be ecxcited for the kids starting school. SHe got up and made breakfast and helped with the lunches. I know I wouldn't have been able to do it. I feel better. She got all the ironing done, while I cleaned out the closet and put my room back together. It was the messiest since Mike has died. It ws so helpful.She was like this is so fun to get to send off kids to school. I miss those days. I needed to hear that. It is so easy to not see what a blessing things are. It is easy to let satan rob the joy. I feel like that is the direction I have been going. Like no way can I keep up with this all, no way is it that I can keep the energy it takes to chase this house, job, and yard. I feel now that I can see what a gift to have a house, job and kids. It was a good perspective to get from her.
I wrote the leading up to why I was in such a funk and it doesn't mnatter what matters is that God sent the McCulloughs to email me a song that they heard at a concert. I came in from sorta freking out on things and there was this song of "Iwill rise and know no pain, I will rise and ride on the wings of eagles..." Something like that. It was perfect for the moment I was in. The was GOd uses people is so amazing to me. That He would care that I was hurting so bad and by myself in the office crtyign and then to turn on this song. It was a faith strengthener for me. I reminds me that when the Holy Spirit nudges you it is so good to listenwe have no idea what is happening in the heavens. Wwe just do out part. Make the call, tell someone what you have been called to tell. Write a letter send a note. I thanked them for listening.
We get to have the youth group over for volleyball and grilling. That will be fun, I hve the stuff left form the other party so it is so good to get to use it.

A great GOd story. Don had told me to put money in the family account, didn't really have the amount that it would take. Guess what while DOnna and I were cleaning out the closet I went through my purses. One little wallet that Mike and I took on trips had dollars in it. I though oh fun money, Oh no it was $320, Just what the doctor ordered. What a gift. I don't understand how on earth I am so taken care of but I just say thank you.
I am going to send this message because it is acting weird again. I won't rewrite this.