Samuel does not have a broken leg or hair line whatever. What we are having is bad problems with his head. I am just sick abou tit tonight. he came hoe fro practice not able to do anything but go and get in bed. While he was working out this afternoon it started and then he had the vision problem. I told him we have to go back to the neuro doctor. The meds that he got are not working. His face was so sad. he has been looking so forward to this season starting forever. I can't stand it. He demands so little and requires such a small amount for happiness. I just hate this for him. But I do not want him to have any kind of permanate damage. tonight wa the night we were to finish all his applications for scholorships. I have done what I could and now he is out cold.
Tomorrow is our aniversary. I miss him right now so much. I am planning a garden and thinking of choes I need to do. Usually we think abou tall that together We love when March 1 comes around. It is still so hard to believe that he has been gone for 19 months. Impossible. It is a hecktic day. Mollie leaves for Hrding University with the youth group. I worry abou ther too she misses days this week and then two next week for the wedding, oh well. I have my Missouri Baptish Hospital meeting. The once a month meeting to work with the hospital on patient care. Then Don is going to come over so I can sign taxes and get the FASFA done for the three boys. Have I said how I hate paper work. even if it is on the computer.
I have been working onthe photo albums. I think when I am back to where Mike is dying I will be ale to do his year. i hope so, feel very behind.
I am having anxiety about the wedding, renting the car and making sure we have everything and then being by myslef with out him seeing Jesse marry. It just make me sick. he thought he was a special guy. To not have him see all three boys down front with there black suites on is so sad. What can you do. Just keep walking through it all. I do know every day God shows me so many things to look at that are such blessings. My friend Lynn that I work out with was so good today to remind me of the gift of just being alive. Not getting so caught up in what I am not doingand should do. Pooh, it is so easy to forget that.
Glad to be alive and well for sure.!!!!!!!!!!!