I found this this am and it was yesturdays post forgot to push the post.

The monument for Mike was to be in by the 16th and now it will not. I am trying to see if it will be in for the 25th. Sharon and Fred will be here on the 23rd and the Pennington's will be here the 25th. Hannah comes in on the 25th. I am praying it will I really want Sharon and Fred to see it.
I start work in a bit. I got up really early to go out and water and pick some flowers for the shop. My zenias are gorgeous. I tried to get back in and the door had locked. Samuel doesn't have windows in his room so it was heck trying to wake him. I am sure it looked silly me poounding on the living room window. It was the one above his room. I was calling at the same time. Finally this bear sounding voice. The four of us are going out to eat at 3 tomorrow. I would like to go by the grave. I think the kids want to. Brandon has to go to work so that is why we are going early. I am going to stay in the day and keep remembering sweet times. I am sick to my stomach much of the time trying not to cry and go to bed. I am thankful for the choice today, and that I am able to make it. I am grateful to not be in depression and not able to get out. I am so glad I can physically work as hard as I do. How precious is health? From what I can see the kids seem to be doing well. They talk, cry some and are very good to me. (most of the time) The other part I think is normal and try to not take it personnel. My friend that is a counselor made a good point. With a week like we are having it could go either way. All could cry most of the time or there will be anger and frustration that has nothing to do with, except hurting.
I ran out of checks, my brain is not working right. I went to the bank and ordered more and picked up 20 made ones to pay bills. I cna't find them anywhere. That kind of stuff makes me angry. Mike was such a good finder. I walk around thinking what on earth can be so hard about this.
Remember today what a special man Mike was, thank you for loving us.