Do you remember the lady I told you of who in her 80's decided to study the bible? Miss Betty, is her name. Not even knowing how to use a bible she got in there and did her lessons and went every week. Due to much prayer from her daughter through the years, funny when God answers prayers. To watch this little lady grow and change. To soften, be able to say she is sorry, to see life through new eyes. It has been such a faith builder for me to know that GOd does not give up on us, He is willing to continue to mold us even till the age of 87 (in two weeks)SHe had a stroke of Tues, God placed Debbie there right at the right time to get her to the hospital. I really really like this lady. I have thought of almost nothing but our time here and what we do with it. The family prayed and let her go. I felt so blessed to get to kiss her check and tell her that I loved her. You know it is so strange this job I have. I get to spend time with clients on such a consistant basis. Every week for 45 minute and every 4 weeks for an hour and a half. I got to here of her childraising years ( a baby died at 6 months that I find delightful she is now with) I want to be like her in many ways. She still exercises, (we were going to take zumba dance out to her and her friends) She does Thai Chi, were a pedomiter on her hip to see if she gets enough steps in for the day. I am so very thankful today that she was able to goes with such grace and dignity. Every week she seemed littler and weaker, and now to get to be walking on day and then gone in two. Wow what a gift. We talked of me doing her hair. The other week I asked her How she flet about dying and was she afraid. Her answer, no not of dying I just dont want to be left hanging around. Can you believe it, just doesn't want to be hanging around. I get to do her to do her hair, for me it is a sacrid thing to get to make her look just like herself. I think really if I went to a service and saw a friend look totally different it would be all I could do to not crawl up there and fix it. My girlfriend lucille 89 said you had better fix it I would be embarassed for you, I know you would have to huddle up there and make it look right. My heart hurts. I beeped her offmy blackberry and just cried. It is now a day to celebrate. SHe was very helpful for me when Mike died.
God just places people in our lives to fill them and grow from them. I am getting to many poeples hair that have cancer or their spouses have canceer. Isn't God amazing to do that for them and me. My business is growing like crazy. It is always a tipping point where my cuts are finally seen and I get to blossom. It has been in Gods timing for sure. I am not able to do more, I am lifting weights with a trainer and my shoulder is better, no timngling in my figers and my back is strong. I feel so glad that I can get through a day and not be like I need to go to bed. He is so good to me.
I am dreaming of getting to go to a fun place with my sisters. They are planning a get away for me for my 50th birthday. Too cool. It is a great mind place. I can think and dream of the get away. SOmetimes I think it is the thinking of something that is the best for me. I used to tell MIke lets just plan something we really didnt't have to go I like the antisipating.
I have been ready some books on growth and dreams, getting some career coaching. I am making a dream chart. Or a vision chart. Very interesting, You cut out magazine pictures and put it on the poster board. I at one point cut out a man with glasses grey hair, handsome, Michael asked who in the heck is that, I told he that was my someday husband. What a look, good conversation later. He said he flet good about it becasue dad said he wanted me to but I didnt really need to talk of it. I had pictures of my grandchildren. (later, much later) It is good to know that GOd is going to give you more than you can ask or imagine. I dream big, it is good to see it and pray for it.
I hope you are getting to enjoy this absolutely gorgeous weather. The leaves are so pretty. I wish, Emily, MOnty and my Donna were here to play in this weather. I don't know how pople live where there isn't a fall, (watch that is where I will move to someday) Oh well for now I can't imagine. It is just invigerating.