No way is it the 13thof Oct. I feel like the days are flying. They say when you are older the days fly well what a scary thought I think I will just be turning in circles with years coming and going if they go any faster. It is gorgeous outside and I should be out doing chores but can't get myself up to do it. The inside is just as needy. I went with my friend Angela and her daughter with Samuel to Springfield to do some college visits. We went to Drury and Missouri State. It was a fast 24 hour trip but very fun. I enjoyed being with Samuel so much, his humor is great. I iddn't go to church this morning. I cooked biscuits and gravy and Brandon and his friend came over. I was going to go late and just didn't want to. Didn't feel like people.
Samuel is going to get to visit the neurologist and then get an MRI for his head problems. Hasn't had any problems resently so I pray it is going away. The sight has been good, Michael and Brandon were moving a big washer dryer unit and it went down the stairs over Michaels head and landed on him. I am so grateful that he is ok. Very sore but nothing damaged. It is always something isn't it?
The leaves are turning and it is so beautiful. I am doing ok with the darker so far. Trying some new things that will help. I am schedualing clients through Christmas that is so weid. It is like 11 weeks till then (fun fact no charge) Our Jesse (donnas son my sister) is getting married in March. I didn't remember if I said tht or not. It is something so fun to look forward to.
GOd is grwoing me for sure. I am working on myself right now. What do I want to be and what needs to change to make that happen. Godd things just hard for me. I am really working on my business and growing it.
I had a scare from SS they sent a letter saying Samuel would not be able to get his money after the Oct 30 when he turns 18. I had filled out papers and had the school send notification that he is still in school. I had gotten all the stuff turned in so I sorta freaked when I go thte notice. (why do I do that) I got on the phone and waited and waited and talked and talked, found out oh It is all turned in it won't be done till he graduates in May. What a relief. I hate stuff like that the up and downs that come so fast. Grateful though for sure.
I miss MIke, and Mom will have been gone the 17th for one year. Mike the 16th a year and 3 months. It seems so unreal. I wish I oculd tell him of all the changes I am making and what I am wanting, goals and stuff. They are very different from what they would be if he were here. Strange how our lives change so sudden. I signed up to get to send Mollie to a day camp for grieving. I am praying it is something that will bless her life. She is such a wonderful person I hate that I watch her hurt. All of us are changed forever. That is so hard to deal with. Nothing is the same and never will be the same. Everyday I see things that will never be. SOme I will say are good and but most are just plan hard.
I ask for prayers for health and strength to keep working at this pace. I love my job so much and for that I am so thankful. It is still such an adjustment. I don't keep up very well and when I am done I am done. Mentally and physically. It is very challenging to be on so much. Everyday I see myself getting better at it. God is good allt he time.